Maybe it would be easier if I wasn't around.
Oh God, am I getting antsy?
Don't let me get antsy, don't let me get hooked.
I don't want it to stop
Should I just leave? Should I go..?
Maybe its this weather.
I need to get out of this funk.
Everything is fine. I have to stop telling myself otherwise.
I wish I was numb sometimes so I wouldn't have to feel so shitty about things.
It gets so old, so quick.
I want to know why I push everyone away.
I want to know why I don't let anyone stay in my life.
I know that it's because I'm afraid of getting hurt.
I know that it's a habit I need to break.
I know that I need to stop bitching and focus on the positive things.
I know that I probably will never be able to fall in love with someone, because I can't keep anyone in my life long enough for that to happen.
What the fuck is wrong with me.